Feeling like a bad person. two girls I am attracted too. both are sweet girls.
Thank you for taking the time to give your feedback. About 3 years ago I met a girl at college (she was a friend of a friend) and we started dating, and it was fantastic. She is cute smart and funny we had some very special dates and days that I will never forget. Unfortunately 3 weeks later was summer, at the time I was working to pay for school 6 days a week and long hours. With a distance of over 2 hours separating us a relationship didn't seem possible so we both agreed to wait it out (regret on my part...). She met a guy and started seeing him, but we maintained a close friendship. While that relationship was going on I met my girlfriend. She is a good girlfriend, we have our fights, issues, insecurities, but also our moments of love joy and happiness and we don't fight often. The other girls relationship fizzled while my new relationship was just beginning. It was at this time my ex told me she had deep feelings for me and truly thought I was the one. I spent nights lying awake not sure what to do and in so much pain because I didn't want to ruin a new relationship that was going well, and knew I felt such a close connection to this girl who I could never get the timing right with. Now she has met another guy and we still maintain a casual friendship, but I sometimes wonder what if. Now I have a job ironically right in her hometown, right next to the place where we had one of our first and most amazing dates. I feel so much guilt because I think about her everyday being there and I can't seem to get her off of my mind. I don't know if this is some kind of sub conscious fear of commitment in my current relationship, unexplored feelings with this girl, or maybe I just let the love of my life slip through my fingers. Either way I feel terribly guilty because my girlfriend doesn't deserve a guy that is thinking about another girl, and I find myself becoming someone I hate. I don't know if I should tell my ex that these feelings? Her new relationship from what I can tell seems happy. Should I tell my girlfriend about these feelings? I feel like I am drowning with guilt over the whole situation, and not myself. This is not the type of person I want to be.