abused as a child and more
Ive had a very large blow up in my family this last week and again find myself so freakn torn up.
Good news is my son made it to Green Bay safely, Im sad and happy.
K, as a child I was abused by a relative. I told my mom when I was 21 and nothing was said since then. This last week it all came out and in such a horrible way via my brother. Needless to say, my family is in shambles. This is why I NEVER told. I couldnt bare knowing what would happen. Although it only happened once, it still carried with me throughout my life.
My whole family has distorted the truths every conversation that has spoken. I dont feel vindicated because my brother spilled the beans, I feel sad. So many things have been said and I eventually was grilled and at one point was told I lied about it. You dont ever forget when youre 12.
Now, as you guys know, my parents were against kyle moving up there, they were pissed at me for not letting him come home, and tonight my mother says "well, he's home now." The audosity she speaks when she wont speak to HER own son.
I think I truly need some outside encouragement from you all. My hubby has been extremely helpful and supportive, but I feel so sick again. I dont have any somas so no worries.
I DO feel like a good mom, and letting go and letting kyle face the fact its time to grow up, damnt, I am a good mom. I cant believe Im allowing my own mom make me feel so horrible.:sad2: WHY would she do this to me? I just dont get it.
I love my family with my whole heart and now its torn to hell. I want to fix it and I cant.