My boyfriend says he will break up with me if i don't do this for him again?
We were going out to eat. He made me give him a bj in the parking lot before we went in. And he told me to hold his sperm in my mouth until we went in and to swallow it right before I ordered. This was like 15 minutes! He knows I hate the taste of sperm. I had so much saliva build up it made it taste a lot worse, normally I would have not be able to but the waiter was looking at me so there was no way I was going to spit it up in front of him so I had to force it down. I had to swallow twice to get it all down because there was so much fluid in my mouth. I gagged really bad and I think the waiter knew what I was doing. I felt so degraded over this I wanted to cry, I couldn't look my waiter in the eye after that.
I want to make my boyfriend happy so I try to always do whatever he wants. But I hated this so much and he is demanding I do it again. I don't want to lose him. Can someone tell me how to convince him not to make me do it? Or does anyone know how I could make it easier to swallow next time?
Please help, I posted this on 2 forums already and they just blocked it. I really need advice