I MOVED ON! time DOES work, guys and gals.
If you search for my history of posts, you'll see that i got rejected by this girl that i really really liked starting my senior year of high school. I asked her out to prom but got turned down. I asked her out quite a few times, all got turned down except the first time. After those, i was pretty crushed and i couldn't concentrate on school work or to a small extent, life, because she would constantly be on my mind. It was my first time falling in "love", or strong-strong-strong infatuation, which was why it hurt so much after being rejected. For the last 2-3 months, I kept telling myself that i'd move on, but didn't really. It was only in words that i tell my friends, but i didn't really.
well yesterday, friday, was graduation and prom. In the morning grad ceremonies, i saw her, she saw me, but we didnt' take any photographs together. i felt i needed to move on. at prom, i didn't see her. period. after she promised me a dance when she rejected me as a date. Finally, as the dance started, i still haven't seen her at the banquet. so i felt a bit disappointed... but then i remembered there's this other really really pretty gal that i've had a small crush on since grade 9, whom i got to know a bit in this past month. so i went up and asked her for a dance, and we did. It was AMAZING. she was the first gal that i danced with since grade 10 dance class, and although we stunk at dancing, it was just simply an amazing dance. Period. the highlight of my night. Afterwards, i would dance with about 5 other gals, but closed the night with a last dance with her, or more like a jive. simply amazing. i probably got like, 5 hugs from her yesterday. once in the morning, 4 from our dances. I've gotten only cold shoulders from the girl that rejected me. This gal is much prettier, smarter, and a lot more outgoing too. she makes me feel wanted with her incessant hugs and patting of my head. while the other girl just made me feel unwanted, rejected.
well i was gonna go to this party that she was going to aftergrad, but lets just say the first aftergrad party i went to was extremely lame. so i got home and went to bed at 1:30am, but the dance with her and the moving on made my entire graduation worth it.
update/ps:
i had heard a rumour going around at a house party i threw two weeks ago, that the gal i danced with was a lesbian. I've heard this rumour periodically from her best-guy-friends. And i was JUST chatting with a good gal-friend of mine and her sister, about my dance, and apparantly the fact is... true... gawd it was hard to type "true". cause her sis' bf was really really close to her before.
Haha just when you think life is going straight, it throws another curve ball at you eh? well w/e, there's a week left of school, and i'm moving away for college, and this fact just set my mind at ease. that while i moved on from my first true crush-love because i had a special moment with another girl... that i know the reason this second one wouldn't work was due to something beyond my control.
good bye high school and hello LIFE!
