Please help me, this is has been eating away at me
First of i'd like to say im new to the forum but i really need advice because i feel very depressed...
Me and my girlfriend have been going out almost 5 months now and a few days ago she was at myhouse and we were kissing and then she just started crying, i kept asking her what was wrong and she would say nothing or its no big deal, after a while she finally said i love you. As almost an instant response i replied the same way. About two days later she asked me if i really meant it and i told her i had said that only b/c she had and that i did it because i did not want to hurt her feelings. Since then she has gotten very upset and has told me she couldn't trust me because i would say something like this and not mean it. After trying to to explain that i had never been in a serious relationship before and that those words didn't mean as much to me as it did to her(she has been in a serious relationship prior to me about 2 yrs on and off). Next day i saw her at school it just akward we would walk togther but say nothing to each other. Later that night we texted eacher other for an hour or so. I told her that i don't know what my feelings mean, i know that she makes me smile and im very happy around her and the thought of being without her crushes me. Finally she wrote me a letter saying that she doesn't want anything to change between us, she also said she thought at first she just loved me as a friend but realized that she loves me like nobody she has ever loved before. Today at school we acted as if this had not happened, i know that she doesn't want to talk about this matter anymore because it makes her upset,now i feel terrible that she feels like she does and i dont know what my emotions and feelings mean, like i said i she makes me happy and smile, and i can't imagine being without her, i would like to say i love her but i really want to mean it and i just dont know what im sppost to feel when i do, somebody please help i cant stop thinking about this.
Thankyou for taking the time to read this, this mean more then you can imagine, thanks and please respond