I wasn't that into him...but now I just can't let it go easily.
I was dating this guys for 2.5 years, and we broke up a month ago. I don't exactly miss him THAT MUCH, but I cant stop thinking about him and keep on wondering what he's up to. :bored:
I had to say I really liked him when I first met him. We did our intern at the same company that summer and we started dating after we went back to school...But every since we "officially" started dating, I started to feel confused, insecure and worried. I liked him majorly b/c he's a really nice person and he's been treating me nice. BUT we had personality problems, and that caused A LOT conflicts. I knew there was NO FUTURE for us, and I kept on telling myself to dump him once I could meet a better boy. We tried to break up a few times last year, but it never worked out. :S I was scared of bringing up the break-up thing, cuz I knew I would feel extemely lonely without him around me..not that I loved him and couldn't let him go. =( We had a fight again last month, so he broke up with me and I just felt terrible. But soon I realised that it was the right thing for us to do..cuz there's really no point to drag it out. But he called me after and said maybe the decision was made too quick? I told him "NO, it's fine." So this time, we ended for good.
I want to remain a good friendship with him as I really do like him as a friend. I wasn't really romantically attracted to him, but I did like his company all the time. :( I still call him and email him these days and he does the same thing too. I know it's not the right step, but I just don't feel like to cut it off totally. SO now I feel like I "miss" him..kind of...not in a romantic way (I didn't even want to kiss him when we were dating)..but then if I picture him dating another girl, I'll feel soo jealous. It makes no sense to me and this feeling confuses me now. AND it really really really bothers me!!! AH..
I don't want to get back to him. BUT i do want his attention still. I know this may sound ridiculous..but this feeling drives me insane sometimes. And I have this feeling I'll regret in the future as I prolly won't meet a better guy. :(
Can anyone tell me whether the decision we made was totally right? Or maybe we could give it another try? I know I still like him (but it's prolly not love)I don't know why I just can't let it go easily. =(