I feel like she's scared to love me

Ive know this girl for over a year now through college and we flirt alot and text eachother often.. we go cinema with friends often and we ALWAYS sit next to eachother and we hold hands and lean on eachother and sometimes look intoeachothers eyes

our relationship is like a rollercoaster at times.. sometimes she'll start acting distant for no reason and this has led me to act distant to her at times. at this moment in time we have started to get back to normal again, we went cinema again recently and she went to grab my hand but i pulled back. im kind of afraid to open up again because she hurt me last time. .. She is a very self concious girl and isnt that great with guys and i told her i like her through text last year through text and she didnt really give me a solid answer.. I do get the feeling at times she really does like me to, but for some reason she acts strange and pushes me back.

A few months ago we were closer than we had ever been but a few days later she completed pushed me back and was avoiding me, I asked her what was wrong and she just denied it all and said nothing was wrong, so i asked a close mutual friend to ask her, and she said that she has "been going through some ****" which she doesnt want to tell anyone about (not even her bestfriend) but it was evident i was the issue as she seemed fine around other people (blatantly targeting me) shes always busy and seems happy around school so it doesnt seem to phase her.

Yesterday she was acting cold through her texts so i told her that i do care about her and I will be here for her no matter what, after i told her she has been very quiet. We are back at school now and i expected her to act cold towards me, but she's been quite the opposite really bubbly and happy which is good.

P.S.. She once said to me while we were teasing and messin about "stop playing hard to get!".. so that made me think aswell. She also said on twitter "i should of treated him the way he used to treat me" which could have been meant for me. Through text she will rarely show any emotion :/ and she hasnt had a boyfriend in the time i've known her

Dont read into lines or analyze. Only whats said eye to eye counts. Everything that takes less courage dont even count. Have np fear and just be how you wana to be in the moment. It looks like your first relationship so you take everything too seriously. All you have to do is chill out no be afaid of hurting or losing her. And then you can enjoy the process. If you dont want to make mistakes and care about your imagine then it will paralyze and get you nowhere.

Here is some suggestions.

1) Express your feelings
2) Apreciate her fpor who he is and let her know what you see in her. Compliment her daily.
3) Avoid indirect communication, interact with her in person only. In this way you will avoid ton of misunderstandigs.
4) Whatever you do asume that she likes you and will like your actions. Even if she dont this selfbelief and confidence will make het like you. When you believe in yourself you are forcing others to believe in you.
5) Be willing to fail. Fear of failure will make you vegetable. If you think into it the most progress you made when acted spontaneously without thinking of consequences. Let your feelings dictade actions. Listen to your heart.
6) Have courage to be yourself. You are unique and thats what makes you better cause different is attractive. You cant expect her like you if you never show her whats diferent about you compared to other gray people. Same thing with feelings.

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