how do I not resent my husband when he still does the same things...
I got married this march 2017, we had only been together for 9 months prior to getting married. When we first got together the man was sooo in love with me, he was like a night in shining armor, I lived in the burbs, he lived in the country. I met him from my best friend because he is her brother, at times his love for me was a bit obsessive I must say, he was so into me sending me memes, love ones and funny ones, driving to my house everyday which is 35 minutes away. We fell in love with being around each other and being outdoors riding horses, fishing etc. after we looked at finiances we decided I should move to the country with him, we could ride more, and do more country things. Johnny was really hounding me to put him first, but I was so busy being a mom and working all the time that I tried but never really could manage to meet his emotional needs, now that I have moved down here and we have gotten married I have given my new car to the father of my children, stopped working since he wanted me to take the summer off and provide for my children and spend the last summer before my youngest daughter started school, since I have gotten married my husband has done a 360. He no longer rides horses, calls me( if he does he seems to bit enjoy the conversation) he texts me but it is very boring. We barley have sex anymore. I take care of everything EVERYTHING but working at this point, I do dog chores clean the house, laundry, mowing, I now his dads yard, his uncles yard. I'm a pretty active person so I enjoy it for the most part, but he seems to not appreciate it. If me and johnny got into an arguement and I tried to leave he would swoop me up and carry my inside LITERALLY. He now gps my cellphone, he dosent like for me to go out after 7. He wants me to go to bed whenever he is going to bed, I like to take baths and he tells me there is a certain time of the day when I can enjoy a soak in the tub. He has literally neglected me emotionally since I have moved down here along with physically. I have tried begging johnny to understand how lonely it is being at home not working, and how there is no fun now that he comes home from work and stares at his phone, or cooks dinner and lays down, he is always obsessed with going to bed and getting 8-10 hours a night even if some days he only works 3 hours. I don't want to say he's lazy but it seems to be the only word I can come up with. He no longer gives in bed, he always tells me that my feelings when I try to express them are nagging. I left the other night because I needed a long drive, and I was upset he never shows appreciation for all the hard work I do for us. He told me when I left he was going to say nice things to me, but since I left he was no longer going to say them..... he also never says thank you, your beautiful, I've tried to buy games/ journals to write nice things in... etc. everything to spark it back up. I've begged him on my knees to give me emotionally what I want, I broke down and cried the other night and he mocked the sounds of me crying telling me I'm dramatic and if I wanted to talk to come to him. He has no empathy anymore for my suffering.... he has literally brought back some verbal Desmond I used to have 15 years ago... his mom and dad are in a abusive/cheating/ physically abusive relationship, his mother is bipolar and has a paranoia her husband ( my father in law) wants to have sen with me, and texts me hateful stuff... johnny just allows it. I honestly At this point have no idea how to get him to care, he feels like he isn't doing anything wrong. And says sorry, but never follows thru with action. He says he loves me, and I should be grateful he don't hit me or cheat on me. I just don't know what to do AT ALL, in the country surrounded by crazys... with no support... no romance, no fun, no intimacy. He also travels for work time to time and told me he won't allow me to travel for my job, and wants me to work a "cushion job". I don't know if I have really tied everything together but he was my knight in shinning armor, now I don't even know who he is? PLEASE HELP