Can one say he likes me? and should I confess him in love?
I crashed on my former professor. I am 22 y.o and he is 33 y.o. He is a chemist scientist who spends most of his life on research, publishing articles, and making experiments. As I know he doesn’t have neither wife nor girlfriend. He was never married. He doesn’t drink alcohol. He is very responsible and self-controlling person. I am not sure about whether he ever had a girlfriend?
When I was taking his class, he helped me a lot; he was always looking at me during class time; he was joking a lot and looking the way I reacted to it, he was teasing me and I just naturally felt his strong attraction to me. My best friend also noticed his special attitude to me. However, after a couple of time, my professor told me that I lack life experience. At that time I didn’t seriously take it. Then I realized what he meant. He actually was saying that I am immature and probably childish for him. But still even after passing his course I saw him in the uni and kind of felt his attraction to me.
I also started to study French and thus asked him for a help. He comes from French region of Belgium. He agreed to help me. However, I was waiting for him for about 4 weeks until he assigns a lesson. I requested a friendship on facebook and accidentally liked one of his posts. After which he blocked me!!!!! At that time I saw I annoyed him probably and just stopped taking to him. However, then I accidentally met him in the uni and asked when will be our French lesson. He told me that he had a a lot of work and that he will give a lesson later as he promised me. Eventually, that day came out. I thought me and he will be alone and speaking French, etc.......... but guess what he did????? he invited to our class HIS COLLEAGUE who is also a French-native speaker. So the three of us went to a coffee house and talked in French. When introducing me to his colleague, my professor told that I am seeking a husband in France; to which I rashly responded that I am not going to marry in my next 10 years because I want to make my career ( I am from very traditional central asian country where girls usually marry early). He was laughing at it and during our conversation he mentioned again about marriage. I don’t know was it a sign ? But he always teased me, so I didn’t pay attention.
Also, I noticed that when we are alone, both of us feel a bit awkward when it comes to speak about something different from lectures or class.
Once me and my mother went to a restaurant where he was sitting with his friends and colleagues. He noticed me and got scared. At first I didn’t notice him but then I felt that someone was staring at me and then hiding after the door. They were sitting in one private room, so when they finished, he went out and wanted to pass unnoticed. Then I saw him and said hi and then introduced my mother to him. He turned red and was very shy. Even my mom noticed it and told me that my professor is very shy. All those small occasions showed me that he is not indifferent to me.
My feelings grew up to him every day. But then I suddenly heart that he is leaving because he accepted a new position in other uni in London. I was very sad about it. I decided to forget him. However, I failed.
After half a year he came to our uni again because of his work and gave a lecture as a guest in our uni to which I came. And guess what? I still like him. He was again looking at me, smiling, joking a lot and teasing. I also tried to speak to him Russian (which is my native language). I know that he learned Russian and wanted to practice it. However, he didn't speak to me in Russian, he always returns to English. I thought he hesitates to speak to me Russian because he doesn't want me to see his mistakes. He arrived only for one week and then left a couple of months ago. I added him as a friend on facebook which he approved this time! Yayyyyyyy!!!!!
I recently graduated from that uni and now I am planning to proceed my studying in London for the reasons not related to him (not in the uni where he works). The fact that he lives there now pushes me to try to start relationships with him. I really do like him a lot. I want to know him better. But from his side there was no initiative which I explained to myself as his shyness or uncertainty and also academic restrictions on the romantic relationships between prof and students.
So I also still have doubts about whether he likes me too or not???? or it was just my fantasy or imagination(hahahah). Can you help me by giving me advice whether it is ok if I take initiative and start dating him ??????? Do I need to confess in love to him or I need to keep silence and wait his confession ???And what kind of tips can you give me?????
