There is A Girl I Really Like

In 7th std she was in my class and i fell in love with her ...she was sitting three rows across me ..she would always smile at me and made eye contact with me ... I made my friendship with her in a funny manner .. i saw she was carrying a pen with a flower...i had received a similar as a gift in a hotel...so i just went up to her and asked her where did you get that pen ..so she didn't reply properly and said that she had got it somhow ...next day i brought the same and showed it to herI asked her if she if she went to the same hotel ..she said that the was pen was gifted to her by her friends..it was a big bummer.After this we became quite a good friends,we used to keep making eye contacts every day in the class.We used to talk using lip sync .... And we used to chat a lot using my mom's phone ...During my exams ..my best friend was sitting behind her and i chose this opportunity to talk to her ... We talked a bit... My birthday came around ... I invited her to my birthday with some of my other friends... She said yes....and she did show up ... She met my mom and all and everything thing..i mean seeing her at my home was the happiest moment of ny life.. i often it sit at the same spot on the sofa on which she sat on ... It was all going real well...We used to play the drinking game in which we drunk water if we had the the situation mentioned ... I used help her in exams via lip sync as she was a bit weak with studies..i was the happiest man when she said her crush's name started with A (later it turned out not to be me ) I even bought her a friendship band for her and left it in her desk for her to receive it when she saw it .she became so happy and i was so happy... I used help her in exams via lip sync as she was a bit weak with studies..i was the happiest man when she said her crush's name started with A (later it turned out to be someone else) ..then it all went down Before every thing went down we she and i always used make eye contact with each other..in the av room(my friend saw this and said -She is yours) in the class in the corridor every whereIt went down when she was proposed and thought it was me...she was just so broken she stopped even looking at me .... Never even looked at me .. abused me.. hurt me verbally .. blocked me and didn't even want to see me ... I was sooo BROKEN INSIDE .. i couldn't do a thing about it.....She only unblocked me when she heard about the news that my grandmother died nd didn't even text me ... I was the one who texted her first ... I said it wasn't me ... She said that i thought you were my friend ..this statement broke me... I was thinking of killing myself.... I almost did one time ( cut myself in the right arm but passed it off as a accident in front of my parents) and cried for days and nights..... didn't text her for 5 months ... I guess I texted her after the summer vacationI somehow managed to cool down things between her and me and got invited to her party... I got her teddy bear and a pocket perfume ( ik a lame gift )And then it was all normal till now ... The best msg i sent to her was her birthday text this year in the 9th std I wrote "I know we have been through a lot of fights but our friendship has survived and when your life has been stuck in second gear,when it hasn't been your day, i will there for you..enjoy your day , happy birthday ________" Please I really need help....I still love this girl..she has a boyfriend...and its my last year in the same school with her ...i need a bit quick action please guys.And about specifications- I am 14 and 5'4 and a brownish in colour ..About her She is beautiful - she is a bit shorter than me .. Too much beautiful...... can't even compare her to the most beautiful thing in the world

You have an obsessive heart which I myself had have when I was in school. It's going to be painful because there is nothing you can do. She has eyes for someone else and you need to accept that. You are young, and in time this heart of yours for her will fade, and you will meet someone else. You will fall in love again. I know you don't want to, but that is how life works. You can't always get what you want. It's a tough lesson to learn. Life isn't always fair is it. Sorry for your pain.

But i can do anything... Literally anything other than giving up......Should I wait till she is single

You will be waiting forever.....

I am ready for that to.....

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And there is her birthday 6 Days Later

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Should I do something ir not.......

She went to your party did she not? So attend with a small gift. Nothing too flashy that you would by for a GF. Don't over do it.

I don’t even know where to start

First of all you have a crush. Love comes much later. When you are young those get confused

You will get over it

Second: you get emotions out of nothing. If you don’t come of as attracting her (which you don’t) then you fall into „ the friendzone“. In reality the friendzone doesn’t exist. It’s simply a no attraction zone. Mainly because you do not show your attraction to said girl. That means you come of as weird dishonest creep if she finds out.

Third. Everything just about to your nickname smells of beta ness. You betray no Alpha attitude. I’m too lazy to explain this more properly.
Watch Baywatch with the rock. He is the alpha dude. The tech guy is just some random gamma dude until he slowly changes too. However still betraying a lot of gammaness in between

Hmm This was great and about my nickname.... its my gaming name

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How do I show my attraction to her ... Teach me senpai

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And I really need to know how to act like alpha

Stop being a gamer. Do manly stuff like get all buff at the gym, play sports, or do rock climbing. Alpha's are not gaming nerds. Alphas dress hot and hit on girls at clubs, they are always on the hunt.

Man you need to continue living. Dont stop your life for her. Keep living and live more than you ever did. Go on adventures with people and so on. Playing games is worst you can do to move on. What needs doing is get out of your comfort zone and experience new things. Life is about jumping even if you dont know where. So jump into adventures !

I would suggest to start at reading „the game“ by Neal Strauss

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The point is not acting like the alpha all the time
The point is having an alpha mindset and attitude.

I'm not going to vote in your poll because I don't think it is that black and white. I don't think it is either give up or pursue her. I think the best advice is to let go of her for right now. To assume she has no interest in you (at least not romantically) and move on as though that were never going to change. That doesn't mean you have to close that door for good. IF she happened to come to you tomorrow, or next month, or next year and asked YOU out... and you still happened to be single, then great. Maybe you can give it a shot then.

BUT.... you should NEVER put your life on hold waiting on something that may never happen. Believe me, I can understand how you feel. I've always been a big romantic myself, and that probably started somewhere around your age. So I understand that when you get a crush on somebody it can be hard to think you could possibly want anybody else. MAYBE under different circumstances she could have been a great match for you.... but that doesn't mean she is the only one. There will be somebody else. Likely many somebody elses in your life before you find "the one." And, despite the misleading name, there isn't just one person who can be "the one."

Don't get me wrong. I don't mean to say it isn't special when you meet somebody who very well could be "the one." I don't mean to diminish the power of that, a connection like that. It's just that there are many people who could be a perfect match for each of us... it is just a matter of which person happens into our life at the right place and time.

Another important thing you need to understand is that nobody... NOBODY... is so important that you should hurt yourself over them. If you truly attempted to/wanted to end your life over this girl, then you may be best advised to seek out the help of a professional. I don't mean that to sound like an attack or like I'm belittling you. I mean it sincerely. I think we could all use a little help now and then. But, you should never harm yourself or attempt to end your own life, and especially not over a relationship (or lack-there-of).

All pain is temporary. If you never get a chance with this girl, that will suck... that will hurt... but in time there will be another girl.... and another... and so on. Eventually you'll find the right girl and it will all seem worth the journey. For now, though, don't get too hung up on any one person. For now, she has a boyfriend, so she isn't available and it wouldn't be right for you to try to mess that up for her. To be honest, though, I am also not so sure I'd even advise you to ask her out anyway even if she didn't. I mean, maybe I am misunderstanding your story, but it sounds like she treated you like garbage for something you didn't even do. So, rather than give you the chance to talk to her and be honest, she chose to vilify you over something you didn't even do. Maybe SHE doesn't deserve YOU anyway.

Best of luck to you.