Low Self Confidence In Relationships
Hi,
I remember there was this point in my life where I would date guys and I would feel complete confidence,..words like "i am skinny, I am pretty, I am intelligent, I have everything going for me" would run through my head, I was only 18 to maybe 21 or so. When I turned 20 I met this guy who i fell madly in love with. We had an incredibly turbulent relationship that last four years. He was defiantely emotionally abusive to me over the years. It took me a long time to get my drivers license, and he would make fun of that. He would say that there was nothing going for me, that I wasn't succeding, but he would say these things after a night of drinking, and then forget the entire thing the next day. I found it easy to forgive him, I'd tell myself, he was drunk, he didn't know any better. We dated all those years and I know of at least one time that he cheated on me, but it's definately possible there was more times than that. In the end he broke up with me citing "he didn't want to be in a relationship with anyone" he was sobbing the entire time.
It made no sense to me, i was angry, i was hurt i was frusterated and worse off, I now have such low self confidence. In the last seven months, i've been datign this fantastic guy, but yet the entire time I keep fearing he will break up with me, as soon as someone better than me comes along.
Most recently he went to the dominican (well he's still there) for a vacation, and i've been panicing the entire time thinking he's cheating
Can anyone help me change my thoughts? Thanks for reading!
