Need to get this out! - Thank you for the internet i guess! I can't cut it with girls

Ok it is 2:30am now here in London and I just need to get this out, like right now! bleah!

I'm just so low on confidence with girls! It's ****ed up! I'm a 22 year old guy, I rate myself above average in looks and body, it's nothing to do with that it's just that, after the last girl I "liked", and I still like her alot, we finished like about a year ago, I just can't get over her and can't seem to be more "fun" around a girl I am attracted to like I used to be before.

Today I met a girl and we spent some time together, then she invited me back to her friends place where there were some other guys and it was like 1am then so they were getting some drinks ready in the house and all but for some reason, I just didn't feel anything, well for example I'm the quiet type when I'm with new people but if I see a girl I like, I can talk it's not a problem, just if I like a girl, I don't want the first meeting or date whatever to be in a house with all others so I kind of just said, "Ah it's late I have to go home!" - Maybe I will meet her again tomorrow but that's not the point.

I'm just losing something right now and havn't been with a girl for a year - when I say been I mean in a relationship. I've had sex with a few since that "year" so it's not like that it's just I'm not the type of "Party Guy" or this "loud" type who just wants to **** every hot thing, I'm more a relationship guy and since my last one, I don't know how to express myself in this way to a girl anymore.

Like the closest I came today was I just said to the girl as we were walking to her friends house that she has amazing eyes ( and she does!) and she got all coy type and said thanks and she digged the way I said it and it's cool but - i'm losing something and to be honest I am not over my last g/f at all because she was the first girl I ever fell in love with properly and the time walking back from this other place to my home now I've been thinking of the last girl I was with and all the mistakes I've made and that what I would write in a letter for her ---

But this girl I met today was amazing - her name is Cristina, she is italian, has amazing eyes, is 3 years young than me, polite, everything

But after today maybe she thinks now I'm boring or too serious or like this because how I just left her party and - I was quiet once I entered the house.

I'm the type of guy, I like to be with the girl only and trust me I can speak so much and I am confident it;s just something else

Needed to get this out - bleah - internet is great huh sometimes? Maybe i can sleep better now!

Goodnight world

You obviously need 2 get over your ex before you think about gettin involved with anyone. You sound like a lovely guy but also a very hurt little bunny. Night x

Oh and let me know how you get on. x

Eh I'm the type where I find it hard to forget things and I hardly fall for a girl in the first place but yesterday's girl was nice but - like I said, I'm a fun guy, I think it's just not coming out right or maybe it was just the situation - if I was just with her and we stayed somewhere else instead of the party with all the other guys she may have liked me more because I would've spoken whatever.

Maybe the only way I can forgot my ex is to get with another "nice" girl who is nice in all ways and is cool - like yesterday's girl but - she probably thinks I'm boring or too serious now

What kinds of activities do you do that allow you to interact with people? If you don't have any, you should work on that. It is easier to meet the right kind of girl when you are active and engaged in the world.

Also, don't worry about your lack of confidence too much. Everyone feels like that to some extent, and as long as you are actually able to interact, your insecurity probably isn't obvious.

Thnx for the words Vash but today I'm really happy - the girl I was talking about I met yesterday, she came around my house today and we had a great time. It's a shame because she has gone back to her city, she was in London for 2 days but we had a great time - we've said we will stay in contact and she said to my friend that "I really enjoy spending time with him(Me)" He told me that later on after we dropped her and her friend at the station.

All I can say is that it's the first time after my ex which is a little over a year ago that I feel .. happy... with meeting another girl/person! Really cool feeling, somethinge I havn't felt for ages but have craved!

They've understood I've liked her too, because I was just speaking to her friend on MSN so she gave some hint and - I hope that I see her again soon or I really wish the feeling was mutual or something and I think it was but only the future can tell but I feel something that I've havn't for over a year with another person

its great

And such is the life of those in their 20s - hating life one minute, and loving it the next! Glad you are feeling better.

Eh tell me about it - but for me it truly has been a long time

Shall i do anything or can I do anthing? Just to maybe show in a subtle way something towards her? A letter or something to say was so great to spend time with her? Or I shouldn't ask for her address so soon right?

I clicked with this girl though - and i havnt clicked for ages with a girl like this

Do you have her email or have the ability to text message her? Maybe you can just tell her you really enjoyed your time together and you'd like to keep in touch.

im going to draw her a picture and mail it to h er with a short letter saying it was real cool with her -

im an artist ;) we do things differently

she is so fine