I still don't care to see that side of the family

Does that make me a bad person?

I simply don't care to visit my dad's (asian) side of the family.

There's some house warming party for one of my cousin's, and I know everybody is gonna be there. The last time I saw any of 'em was back in January.

I tried caring, I tried reconnecting old ties, but I simply don't care to.

I'm so different from them.

As assimilated as they all are to US culture, me being only part of the second generation, they still adhere to some of those asian stereotypes and expectations, going to college, being successful blah blah blah.

My dad kept telling people I was in the PeaceCorps, and I always corrected him, because there's a huge difference between the PeaceCorps and AmeriCorps. So when I explained to my cousins I wasn't in the PeaceCorps but AmeriCorps, it's like I lost all crediblity, like I let them down or somethin'.

None of them care about that stuff, it's all about personal gain for them and prestige.

I wouldn't mind if a nuke wiped the lot of them out.

It's not like world is hurtin' for more asians anyway.

Sound just like me. But I feel the same for both sides of the family. High five man.

Though personally, I don't think it makes you a bad person. From what you mentioned before, they aren't too fond of you because your Bi-racial right? If I'm right in assuming this, you don't need people like that. Just stick to who your comfortable with.

I think you're in good company, Fras. Most of us have some family members we'd like to throw on that pyre.

You know what I want for Christmas? To be left alone by all of those people I'm related to, because they ALL want to talk about my divorce.

Family knows no boundaries, you know? Can't they just be happy to see you and leave it at that?

I think it is common for people your age to be disillusioned about their families. I think it often gets worse, I'm sorry to say. I would just stick to building relationships with the ones that you enjoy, and try to allow for the possibility that some of the younger ones may evolve into decent people one day.

It's just frustrating, I've felt like over the past decade family that I still care to see has only dwindled to small numbers scattered across the US.

It does not make you a bad person at all, babe.