I messed up big time, I think I lost a friend
I know this is for love problems but it can somewhat relate to it.
A few months ago I met this girl, she actually came to me awhile back, we both got along great and had fun talking to each other.
Thoughout our friendship, we made out a few times and sometimes I would pick her up from work and drop her off...
Eventually though she got a boyfriend, but he's been talking about this guy for a little while now so...I probably could of had her but I never really asked her out or anything, because at the time I wasn't ready for a relationship.
As time went on, we grew further and further apart, she seemed less interesting me in and such, but we still talked.
I made alot of jokes about her boyfriend scott and she really had a problem with my Jealously. This was my first mistake, acting all Jealous. she explained to me that I should stop, so I did for awhile after that. in the past 2 weeks its been really really hard for me to get a hold of her over the phone..
but recently, I messed up bad and the really stupid part about it is that I hardly remember it....and i was like half way drunk
Apprantly, I called her house last night and I asked for her, her moms b/f was on the phone.
So..apprantly while I was on the phone with this guy I talked crap about my friends boyfriend.
So..she found out this morning and got really really pissed at me, she send me an emailed saying she was not happy at all and that I needed to chat with her, at first I was confused and than I realized what I've done last night. I send her this..
"Dawn, all I can say is that Im sorry for saying that and if you don't wanna talk to me now, I really can't blame you.
But I am hoping this won't change anything. Yea, it was wrong of me and usually I don't joke around like that but im just different when im buzzed out ya know.
Anyway, I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me."
Unfornately this didn't make the situation ay better.
She send me this
"you know i told you that the jealousy crap HAD to stop...i thought you had that clear in your head and then you pull this shit. my mom isnt very happy and thats whats making me pissed off. i already know you dont like scott. youve made that very clear. but you cant keep mouthing off and talking shit. i understand your situation, but he IS my boyfriend and believe it or not i DO get offended when you talk about him. im sorry Ken. i thought we were ok. i wanted to hang out still. but i really dont know if things are gonna be the same, i really just dont know what to do with you right now Ken. i like you. your a real nice guy. but it just doesnt seem like your getting past this scott thing.
I send her this after that email
"I understand Dawn and nothing I can do right now will make the situation any better.
Im so sorry for the trouble I have caused for you, really I am. You have no idea. What I did was stupid and I understand how you feel towards me right now"
After that, she deleted me from her msn and myspace, I told her that I didn't want to lose her...she told me she was really sorry and doesn't know what to do right now, she said everyone is telling her to do this..:(
Im so depressed about this now, im crying because it was my fault. Is there anyway I can fix this??
