i am a broken emotional wreck. yes i am officaly pathetic.

i am broken. i havent seen him in a week and in that time my whole personailty has been drained out of me, and he still shows no sign of weakness. i am hurt, sad and depressed. i cry all day and all nigth and for what? a boyfirend who's not my boyfriend? for some one i deeply deeply love and cannot be with? i don't know what to do anymore. i still have 2weeks to go. we simply cannot be together in anyway. we have to wait years and i don't have the strength. realisticaly there is nothing we can do rigth now we both know it and i can't keep blaming him for evrything. (this is what i have been doing since forever) so i don't know what i want from this thread but i am an emotional wreck an i wanted someone to listen cause my world is closed around me. thanks.

ok i realy don't know what to do cause all i do is blame him and then we end up figthing which makes the sitution worse. im so lost.

see a psychologist. You need help.

chill out buddy!!!
make new friends, go diff places...enjoy..
make urselves busy...thats the way u will forrt all those shit...if u sit alone doin nuttin, then those thoughts will continuously keep on strikin u...

Yea, don't do nuttin...also...try not to do nothing.