I've been in a good relationship for a year or so now. And I really like it. But things have always just happened that seem to make it harder to love. She seemed to have all these problems that have just come out of the woodwork, and they've appeared through out the time of the relationship. A few weeks back, for instance, she got heavily drunk in class and had to be hospitalised for the day because she lost consciousness. It's just things like that that build up. She's now promised she won't drink ever again, but it's just so tricky.
I can't seem to be a faithful person. I know I must have feelings for her, because when I heard the news I felt like I would cry, and that I was going to physically vomit. But it's just... I can't seem to put my finger on it.
I'm tempted by other people around me. I just don't know what I'm meant to do. We have such a good time together, although it feels like love isn't something I can hold for long. With previous girlfriends, I just don't know what I have until I've lost it, and I just think that maybe it's just me being spoilt.
I keep telling myself that I'm young, and don't have to worry about it right now, but what if problems like this persist even when I'm at an older age, and am considering marriage?
Thanxx.
