I really need some help/guidence here...IDK what to do.. :\
Ok let me give you a rundown of the situation real fast. In highschool this girl used to like me. I got to know her and thought she was really cute and cool but i just was not ready for a relationship at that time due to some relationship problems i have had a little before that time.
But now pretty much a year later i have developed STRONG feelings for her. We have always been good friends and talk pretty much everyday and hang out at least once a week. I finally told her about my feelings maybe about 2 weeks ago. I guess you could say her reactions where mixed. I asked if there was a chance we could become more than friends and she said "maybe". Then further into the discussion she explained the reason why she does not know.
I must say i was a little suprised...She told me lately she has had an attraction to this girl. But she said THATS IT. Its only an attraction and nothing more. Now i know an attraction can mean alot some times but i asked her why its playing such a big role if its only an attraction and i got this
"IDK. i love you sooooooo much and it makes this really hard. Your a PERFECT person chuck and i love you. I just guess i over anaylze things. I just dont understand myself. And my mind just keeps on telling me IDK...."
Then i asked well what do you think i should do? Move on or what? Here is how she responded.
"I dont want you to move on from those feelings but at the same time the last thing i would EVER want to do is hurt you and make you wait if nothing will happen...I just dont know right now..."
Now let me give you a run down on how much this girl means to me. There really are no words to describe it....But all i can tell you is that one of the reasons i HONESTLY BELIEVE i was put on this earth is to make her happy no matter what. Everytime i see her or talk to her i cannot help but smile. I have never felt this way about ANYONE EVER before. Im still young at age 18 but im also super picky when it comes to girls and relationships and honestly EVERYTHING seems RIGHT about this.
So what do i do???? We are hanging out in a few days and where going to have a talk about "our complicated relationship" as we call it. Do i tell her about how i feel and what i mentioned above about making her happy? Do i simply move on and forget these feelings???? Or do i hang on. Everything inside me tells me to hang on but at the same time if my chances dont look good i dont want to be crushed by this...
All i know is not a day has gone by for about a month that i regret not going out with her in HS and what not....
So ladies and gentlemen what do i do here???? Move on or hang on???? I already promised her no matter what the outcome i will always love her and i will always be her friend and be there for her (i have helped her through some deperession she has had recently) i dont intend on breaking that promise!!!! I just really need some help here.
I appreciate you guys taking the time to read this and help me out more than you will ever know. Thank you!!
-Chuck
