Hmm, How can I start. I bet I'm so depressed that I cant find a way to start....
my story started two years ago. I have never before loved someone online and I never expected to love someone online until I met that guy, this guy that is three and a half years younger than me. at first it wasnt a relationship it was more like an open friend whom I used to tell everything, and suddenly we turned into an awesome releationship. that guy loved me so damn much. I knew he is the one, I knew that no one on the whole earth could ever love me like the way he loved me.
Even though we never met , his words and the way he acted made me sure 1000% that this is more than love. time started to pass by very fast and we started seriously to think about meeting, though we live in different far parts on earth.
my family wouldnt let me travel (I'm 22 now) and he is very poor person. and here our releationship started to get weak.
lots of fight and lots of tears, lots of recored voices of him and promises he couldn't keep due to the miserable poorness he is living in. his biggest fear was us breaking up or failing of making this love turn true. I knew he isnt a liar , I know him more than any person on earth and the last thing he would ever do is lying. now his life got even worse and worse like the last june his internet went off for a whole month and I couldnt tell what on earth did happen.
when he came back he apologised so much writing me emails and alot of emails and his words are those who can easily capture any girls heart...... for instance a part of one of his messages was :
My beautiful, smart, funny, beloved. The one I most admire and adore, the womans who's virtues and honor I despaired ever finding in another human. Whos likes are my likes, loves are my loves, and skills are things I am contantly amazed by. Here you are, the woman I always dreamed about made flesh and blood, and yet even the person from my dreams can't compare. Because in you I find something unexplainable, something no words can describe. I find every little fault you have something adorable, and love you for every good thing, and even more for every bad thing. You are like someone I've known my entire life. A mystery and yet someone I know completely. You are the one who has captured my heart, and gave me the strongest, deepest bond I've ever had. A bond I've never thought possible. When you're happy I feel godly, when you're sad it rains for me and when someone hurts you my heart burns with fire. Simply I love you.
and lot and lot more of those words and all were written by him...
finally things are fixed and I told him we can give our self a chance and he started to tell me how he will make us meet on December.
but at august he disappeared again, I tried to call him but it seems that his phone is cut off because of bills too. now its been a month and actually I'm really confused , should I stop this releationship because of his miserable life? or should I wait years and years till he can fix that?
