Help me Jesus! She might be cheating on me!

I guess I was spying on her, a little...Found her chatlogs, and her posts on some forums...She knew where I stood, and what my beliefs were...I kinda trusted her...But I never shoved my beliefs down her throat.

I thought her heart was right.

Let me give you some background. I'm a major prude, and I absolutely despise sex. I think that lust pollutes love, etc. I'm a Fred Phelps-type of guy.

I think this world is polluted, and that everyone is perverted. She knew all this...

I'm against even staring or admiring another person. Because it is only flesh and bone...carnal pleasure. SELFISH HEDONISM.

By now you're probably very angry at me...And you don't care about my feelings, and you wanna insult me...

But there must be someone there with some advice...

What should I do?

Her posts are kinda old...probably dating from before we met

It's not that bad according to your standards, but for me it's devastating...

She was my whole life...

Now, I've had to read her share some bizarre shit on those forums. I'd say that only 5% of her posts had something to do with sex. But, still it's unforgivable...

Her heart is not right.

She's not like me...


I don't wanna even bring it up, so that she doesn't feel hurt or embarrassed...

She has an hidden side. A dark secret side to her.

I feel trapped. I'm not gonna make a compromise...

I'm not gonna put up with that shit, but she's my world...

Will I ever get over her? I don't want to.

:upset::(