Ended Love.???

I screwed things up,
What else is new?
This time I just don’t know what to do.
My love for him is strong,
But this anger is too,
Sometimes I wish he was someone new.
Someone more sweet,
More thoughtful,
More caring,
Someone who would be there all the time,
My thought are such a crime.
I love him so much, but I messed it up,
How can I fix this without a fuss?
I want it to be normal,
More fresh,
More fun,
Like when we first started dating,
When there was more sun.
My heart it aches,
There’s frustration and pain,
How do I say sorry with it meant to be the same?
I want my love back,
I don’t want this to end,
How do I stop messing up again and again?