I think I screwed up again...
Oh man, if I gotta post here one more time... this is getting old, fast. Sorry this is a novel....
So here's my problem.. if any of you remember what I was just going through and read that I found someone new, it's not as great as I had hoped. So I hung out with this new guy about 4 or 5 times. He was the sweetest guy I've ever met. We talked everyday for the first week: texting me daily, texting a "good night babe" and a "good morning", and talked online throughout the entire day. Things were good. But about 2 weeks ago, probably after our 3rd or 4th date, we slept together. I told him I didn't want that to be a regular thing with us because I wanted to get to know him better. Of course the next morning and all week after that, we found an excuse to fool around. I met up with him for drinks last week and we made plans to see eachother on Saturday. Granted when I met up with him, I got really drunk. He drinks too though so no finger pointing. This is where things are blurry (no pun intended). I had fallen asleep in my car because I couldn't drive home. Once I did get home, he text me saying he was sorry and hoping I wasn't mad at him. I replied that I wasn't but had an awful hangover. I went on with my day, hung out with my best friend.. Now I do smoke, and only occasionally.. maybe twice a month, if that. I wanted to see him that day, and he told me if I was around to let him know. So after smoking, we met up. He asked me what was wrong and said I looked drunk. I told him the truth. He was really disappointed it seemed (I honestly don't blame him at all). I told him I wouldn't do it again, it really doesn't bother me to stop. I've wanted to anyway. He said, "well you're probably just going to do it behind my back and lie about it anyway." ?????? We haven't known eachother nearly long enough for him to assume that. Anyway, we hooked up after that.. he sarcastically said "Now you're ready to go home huh?" whatever that means.... he was passionate when saying goodbye like always, made me promise to text him when I got home and the next morning. Text him that night and the next morning, which was the Saturday we were suposed to hang out. I asked if he was mad at me, he said no. He never text me again after, so I asked if we were still on that day and no answer. So I said, guess you dont want to talk to me anymore so I'll ttyl. Haven't heard from him. What's his deal? I have a feeling he's turned off.. but this isn't something that couldn't be fixed.. I told him things could change, it's not that hard. Should I give it up? I refuse to text him if he's going to ignore me. I hate feeling like an ass. Think he'll eventually want to talk again??
