Just to give you a background, I am a girl in her early 20s, going to school. I have a boyfriend, of three years, the past year we lived together, but we almost broke up during that time because we really do not seem to get along, on most aspects of life. I just moved out of his place, but we are still together.
In my job, I work with A LOT of guys. Although I am naturally shy at first with most people, after I break free from it, I can be a big flirt sometimes, but I have never cheated on my boyfriend. Although I have had crushes on a few other people during our relationship... this concerns me because I do not feel that if I loved him as much as I should I would not have crushes on other people. These crushes usually die because I end up trying to separate myself from my current crush...
but... now after I have moved out of his place, I have developed another crush on this guy I work with, who I barely even know. It is very frustrating, especially because I am extremely shy in front of him. He does try to talk to me, but ever since I developed a crush on him, Ive been trying to avoid him..... mainly because I am afraid of saying something stupid, I am just so nervous...
the other day he came up to me and I choked up, I couldnt even speak... I dont know what has come over me, I havent been this shy in front of someone since I was in high school (I was extremely shy in high school, but I have overcome most of this)
I wish for one, I would not getting these crushes on random guys (and I wonder if it is because my boyfriend and i tend to not get along with each other), AND I wish that I could just talk to this guy like a friend instead of having a panic attack... not literally of course... but I am still very embarrassed that I could barely choke out a word when he spoke to me...
