Can't get this out of my head
I miss my ex (lets call him A)so much but he treated me badly when I went out with him. I wasn't treated with enough attention and care. Maybe we just don't mesh well together or maybe he just wasn't that into me. I felt like crap and started feeling very lonely so I contacted another ex (lets call him B) and we just talked. This guy accepted me right back even though we've broken up and haven't talked since 2 years ago. He also want to get get back with me. B is a very nice guy, have done way more things for me than A and when we went out he treated me very well. However, I'm not attracted to him (and never really was) because he just bores me. I know I'm being a total jerk for using him to fill in the void and I really do think that B deserves better things than me. Sometimes I think its Karma and that maybe A is treating me like I am treating B. I miss A so much but dating A was the most painful experience I had. Now I feel like crap and don't know how to handle this. What is the best thing to do now?