Just out of reach, I need advice.
I'm an 18 year old guy in Indiana. Over the years I've been through a lot of pain and battled with MPD (Multiple Personality Disorder) and Bipolar disorder. Needless to say it's hard to find a girl when things inside your own head aren't really working right. I've been rejected countless times and it never gets easier. I'm not unattractive I don't think, and for the most part I act normal, my disorders haven't made me creepy or anything. But it's very hard to find a girl who understands me and accepts ALL of me. But I have found one.
Her name is Karli and I've known her for almost 5 years. She's the best friend I've ever had and we're inseperable. We both openly love each other and look out for one anothers happiness. Unfortunately I've made my usual foolish error of completely falling for her. :? She knows I love her but she doesn't really know how IN love with her I've become. It's come to the point where whenever I'm depressed or really down, hearing her voice over the phone brings my spirits up entirely. I've thought about talking with her about it but I don't want to over-complicate her life or make her uncomfortable. All I really want is for her unconditional happiness, whatever that may include. I know she's mentioned staying at my new apartment all the time when we go to college. And shes even told me that she wants to get our own place for our sophomore year of college, but I'm not sure if I'm more of a brother to her or what. I just have a lot of love in me right now, and she's the source of it all. It's 5 AM right now and I've been looking at all of your posts hoping to find an answer to the yearn inside my heart. I need help if anyone can give it.
She's an incredibly desirable person which makes it difficult and I want to be sure she knows how I feel before college when there might be a lot more better guys she can meet so she'll have all the options she wants. I would die for this girls happiness, if I only knew how.
Please help.