I've got a long story that I really need to get off my chest..
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Basically, January last year I realised I liked a girl I know ALOT.. Like, more than i've liked any other girl. I'd even go to the length of saying I loved her.
We got on really well and had so much in common, it was like we were the perfect match. She wanted a guy, I wanted a girl, and we both wanted something serious.
So all was well, we met up quite alot all the time and so on, it was as if we were a couple! But little did I know.. I had fell into the 'friendship zone'.
Things carried on, me thinking everything was going ok. I invited her over to my house with a few of my other friends, and I was hoping that we'd finally tell each other how we felt and i'd sweep her off her feet like some fairy tale.
To cut it short, that never happened.. In fact, when I woke up she was asleep cuddled up with my best friend that I introduced her to a few weeks before.
The following day she told me they'd been talking alot and she really liked him, and that they decided they were gonna become an item.
This crushed me, and as soon as she told me I just told her how much I liked her, and she said she was sorry but we were just friends and she didnt want things to change.
My best friend knew how much I liked her, but I told him if she made him happy then to just go for it.
The first few months were really hard and i'll admit I was heartbroken, and she completely knocked all of my confidence out of me.
She even told me when they first had sex and all these details about how great their relationship was.
They were together for a year, in which time I tried to find somebody but I just felt worthless and crappy which lead onto nothing at all materialising.
The whole time they were together, I rarely saw my best friend or her, which kinda messed me up because I didn't have anybody real close to talk to about stuff and so on.
Since they broke up about 2 weeks ago, i've seen her alot because shes upset and lonely. Like an idiot, i'm still here for her, and my feelings are growing again even though I know the next time she falls for a guy will mean she'l have no time for me again.
She keeps saying stuff like how great I am, and how she thinks one of her friends should get with me because i'd make "such a perfect boyfriend".
I've done nothing but care for her and try make her happy the whole time i've known her but it seems she only wants me when nobody else does.
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What am I meant to do ? Any advice is appreciated..
Thanks..
S