am i nuts??

i broke up with the love of my life 5 years ago, i was the one who ended it and to this day i dont have decent reason and its always been in the back of my mind that i regretted it. we were still really good friends. he still loved me for at least two years afterwards that i know of. during that time he moved to canada (i live in australia) and we still stayed in contact and are still really close. hes been there for 4 years now. ive tried every reasonable and unreasonable way of trying to move on but still have not so i gave up on trying to move and have come to the conclusion that i will fly all the way to him in canada from australia to tell him that i am still in love with him and always have been. am i nuts? is this doomed? i dont know i just dont know. how do i do this? how do u go to all this effort and tell him, the boy whose heart you broke so hard, that you've always loved him??
please help.

Most likely doomed, but these things are never easy to tell.

So tell me, hodgo why did you break up with him in the first place? (what was the cause?) What made him move to Canada? Is he still single? What's the age gap between you two?

i dont have a decent reason for ending it. i never did. i guess the fact we were at different schools was a part of it but definatley not the sole reason. he moved to canada with his folks. his mums canadian and his dad got a job over there. currentlly he is single, since he left he's only had one gf, it didn't last long. age gap? there isn't really one, he's about to turn 18 and i turned 17 a month or so ago. do you really think its doomed???

Your both very young and this long distance relationship won't work out for now.
I say just keep him on friend status for now, and go meet other people, and after your both done with school and still single, only then it would work.
Everything in life happens for a reason, so go out there and gain some experience.
High school doesn't mean too much in terms of love, once you hit university you start to see, If it'll last.

so let me get this straight..you broke up with him when you were 12..and you're wondering why you dont have a solid reason. i think i know why.

???

Forget about him. You will be embarrassed later on if he witnessnes you do something so impulsive. Besides, if he is like 99.9% of 18 year olds, he won't be able to move anywhere without his parent's blessing.

please dont doubt my feeling guys i know i was incredibly young but these feelings have been with me for 6 years now and ive treid every reasonable and unreasonable way to move on but it hasnt worked.

You're not dumb just young and naive.
Er... I mean nuts. You're not nuts.

Funny thing about naivete, if you realized it, you wouldn't be.

Go do something.