I really am sorry for posting so many posts . I've written about boy problems, family problems, bullying and that time at my friends house but now I have THIS to deal with: (it is a looonnnng story just to let you know)
There is this girl (Lets call her X) who I have been friends with for around 5 years.
At first, everything was great and we would do everything together and have such a good laugh all the time.
As the years went by, things began to change. Our group got bigger as we moved through secondary school and we grew apart a bit - but we were still good friends.
But then I realised something - she always got stressy around me and moaned at me, but not our other friends. I realised it was just hormones - but why take it out on me?
She is a very competitive girl and she can really rub it in when she eventually beats me on tests and stuff.
But something else that confused me was this:
Infront of all our friends she complains about how fat she is and she wants to be as skinny as one of our other friends, BUT, one time she said to me how she wished she was as curvy as me - ???
Then us girls all planned to go out shopping together. X was told to pass on the message to me and she tells me it is on sunday.
But on saturday night - i get a message from one of my other friends asking why I didn't turn up. I replied that X told me it was on sunday and when confronted, X denied it.
There was a trip to Barcelona in Oct 07, and only me and X were going out of our group. (That is also when I started to like that guy that I talked about in another post)
During the trip, there was a fire at 1am. Me, X and our other room mate were the last to be evacuated because when people knocked on our door, we thought it was knock down ginger until we heard sirens.
Outside, a woman gives X a bottle of water but she tells me that we will have to share as there aren't enough bottles for everyone. When I go to take a sip, X moans "Loz, that's MY bottle of water!" and I say that we have to share it as there is not enough so I take a sip and X goes "eurgh! that's disgusting" under her breath - I asked her what is and she says "Well I can't drink from that now, its got all your germs on it!."
She got stressy with me at other times on the trip as well. She asked me if I idolise celeb lifestyles and I replied "No, not really."
X goes "Well I think you do."
"But I just told you I don't"
X: "Well I don't believe you."
Well what is the point of asking me, if you won't believe me anyway? i say with a slight laugh
X: "Fine then, don't ask for my opinion on anything ever again. We may as well not talk anymore because you'll just disagree with me anyway."
The other day I was in town and happened to bump into X and another friend. The other friend invited me to join them and so we had lunch together. But X didn't look to happy to see me.
Then I had to go off because I was meeting another friend and an hour or so later, I bump into them again. So the other friend, for the second time invites me to go and play tennis with them and we all have a good time taking pics inbetween games.
But then friend X mentions that she is going out with her family the next day. She invites the other friend right in front of my face but not me. Then she finally suggests that I come too.
And guess what, she "forgot" to ring me with the details. Not only that, but she deleted me off myspace and I have noticed how she never replies to me on msn or myspace.
And one time, she was telling us girls about a boy she knows outside school. One of them suggested that we all meet him and she says "I could but..."
Later on I ask her why not invite him out with us and she says "Because I don't want him to meet you, incase he likes you more than me."
I don't know what to do really. I can't say that that is the behaviour of a true friend but infront of all our other friends, she acts like she is perfectly ok with me.
All my friends adore her and like her more than me but she has stopped inviting me out - and she just says to my friends that I couldn't come if they ask, she stops talking to me outside school unless another friend is there.
I get the feeling that she doesn't want me to have friends. I think she wants everyone to love and adore her- she wants to be the best at everything and I don't think she want me to be friends with the people I'm friends with incase they prefer me to her. We both share the same name so I think she wants to be the favourite Loz of the group - which she probably is because most of my friends talk to her more anyway.
I wish they could see her true colours like I have, but I would just look a bitch if I confronted her and she would turn all my friends against me.
I don't know what to do? Without being mean about it?
Its just really not good - she's like toxic in my life and nobody else can see it. Hopefully I'll make more friends when I start collage this Sept, but the thing is, X and all my other friends are going to the same one and I'm worried that any new friends I make, will become Xs new friends as well. She was meant to be moving to Canada, but it had been postponed - I really wish she would move now because then I don't have to worry about whatever I had done wrong to offend her.
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