Well first off I just want to let you all know that I'm 16.
I've been with my boyfriend for 8 months now, and during the last few days it hasn't been the same. Two nights ago we had a really long phone conversation about "us".
Before I tell you want we talked about that night, I want to tell you a bit about how we've been since we have been going out. For the first few months everything was great, and we had no real problems. It was when I started school this year that we had our first big argument. (We go to different schools). Well on the last day of the first week of school, he called me that night (as usual) and told me that he still loves but but thinks that we would be better off if we broke up. I started getting upset and crying, so I hung up. Ten minutes later he called back saying he was sorry, that it was all a big mistake and that he wants to stay with me. So I forgave him and we saw eachother the next day. Two days later at school, I found out that he had lied to me. It turns out that on friday (the day he dumped me), he had talked to another girl and had exchanged numbers. I called him soon after I found out and he said he was sorry and that it didn't mean anything. What hurt me the most was finding out that he had been texting her while he had been on the phone with me on friday. That day I decided to stay with him, and I eventually forgave him. I put what he had done to me at the back of my mind so we could move on. He seemed really sincere and apologetic, and still regrets what he did to me.
Nothing else happened until two nights ago.
He said that he thinks he might like another girl (who, mind you, he has NEVER talked to. only seen). He also said that he believes that thisrelationship is too hard, and that he doesn't really know how he feels. He still cares about me, but is really confused about what he should do. He has always brought up that he sometimes thinks about breaking up with me, as it would be easier for both of us.
It feels like I've been hurt and used sometimes in this relationship, but I care about him too much to done anything about it. I can't imagine not being with him. But at the same time, I think I'll only get hurt by him as he doesn't love me as much as I love him.
I would miss his daily phone calls, I would miss the way he was so proud of me, I would miss the way he smiles, and I would miss all those times we had together. I would miss my best friend. :upset:
After last night, in which we also talked a bit about "us" (nothing new), he has decided to think about it over and tell me how he feels tomorrow when he comes over to my house. I don't know what I should. Everyone I know tells me that he isn't worth it if he's done all those things to me, but I just can't imagine leaving him.
I'm scared that if we break up I will never find someone like him again - that I will never find someone who loves me for me. I've always wanted that fairytale ending when the two people meet in high school and live happily ever after together. But I've realised that that rarely happened. I just need to know that true love is out there somewhere for me. That someday I will meet someone who loves me and who would never dream of letting me go. I want the other person to fight for the relationship, I'm tired of being the one who has to. But I really love my boyfriend and I think that he could be the one I will love the most if we just give it a try. But is it worth it? - Is he worth it?
Should I stay with him and give it another shot? Or should I let him go?
