Me and my ex was together for 3 years i was 17 when i met her and she was my first love and only love so far in my life. we broke up and after saying to my bestfriend she thinks it would take months to get over me, 2 weeks later shes with somone else and to make things even worse the person shes with is one of my so called friends. After a few months of wondering how on earth im ever going to get over her i finally started to forget about things and started thinking about myself abit. When we broke up i didnt want it to end so i had a really hard time letting go espicaily watching her go with one of my friends you have no idea how much that hurt. but i forgot about her i was having fun and started enjoying myself. we have been apart now for almost a year we have not even said a word to eachother in that year, im 21 now and for some reason shes still has a big affect on me i cant forget her no matter how hard i try i cant.
i dont mean i just have feeling for her i think im still in love her i miss her so much and there not a day i havent thought about her my head telling me shes with somone else and shes happy, i know that and the last thing i would want is to ruin that for her but on the other hand i cant live with myself knowing that i love her still and she doesnt even know. i want to speak to her again i need to know wether she still ever thinks about me but i dont think i can speak to her. i have had 3 relationships since we broke up a year ago and they have bin nothing compaired to what we had, not even close.
everyday im asking myself how did i let her get away, how can i fix this and what should i do??
after all thats gone on there should be tons of reasons why i should hate her but i dont im mad about her still and if she ever came back to me i would jump at the chance to put things right seems like im jus waiting for her but she not going to come back what happens when you dont want to move on and you just want the one you was in love first with?? HELP PLEASE :upset: