I am very very sad right now, tears coming down from cheeks. I've dated this guy for 5 months, having great time together. He is not ready for a relationship right now, but he treats me very well. So I decided to give it a try and he also wants to continue date with me and work on it to get things serious. However, we just got break up because of MONEY! I still cant believe our good relationship end up with this.. kinda of long story. sorry!
So, he almost paid all the expense when we hang out in the first 3 months. After that, we kinda of getting a habit to regular dating, meeting once or twice every week. I don't want him to pay everytime and want to make him feel comfortable about our dating, so I offer to pay(Although I am a student, he is a working professional), after that I always paid myself dinner, etc. Everything goes fine then.
However, at this weekend, we drive to a beach 2 hours away, we had good time. I paid for myself lunch, admission pass. The parking fee is 10 dollars, and I didn't pay. After we left the town, we went to Macdonald's, I am in the line behind him waiting to order and pay for myself. After he finished order his, he turned to me ask what do you want? So, I suppose he want to pay, and said Thank you. After that, we drive to the gas station for gas, where he added more 40 dollars gas. When he got back to the car, he looked kinda of unhappy, and said, 40 bulks gas, so expensive nowadays. I didn't say anything and not prepared to pay his gas. After a while of both silence, he is like" Can you help me to share the gas" I was very surprised, but not showing it, saying how much you want? He said 10 dollars, so I gave him without hesitation.
After that, I am kinda of bothered by this thing, and I didn't say any word to him in the whole 2 hour drive. We had a argument when got back. He asked why I am unhappy, I said I am not comfortable with the gas. He said he was not very comfortable too he felt like I take grated to let him pay everything, the parking, the gas, the Macdonald's. He felt shocked that I even didn't offer to share. And felt shocked that the gas thing bothered me so much, no conversation the whole drive.
But I have my reason why bothering me:
1. The gas thing: I am from a different country, although I know it's very common to share gas here, it's just very short distance, 10 bulks, not very long distance. I never experience this before, kinda shocked emotionally.
2. I don't believe in a relationship, couple need to equal everything. It's so common for man to pay a little more than the woman. Besides, we are in a different financial situation, I am a student with little income, however, to make him comfortable, I've tried my best to pay myself dinner, etc, previously. The only thing I didn't pay is just the parking, and Macdonald's, the gas, which total is just 20 bulks! I still can't believe that I didn't pay this small amount bothers him and he actually asked me to share the gas just for 10 bulks!!!
3. In my culture, it's so embarrassing to make everything so clear in terms of money, if I really care someone I wouldn't think so much in terms of money. In the beach, when he is surfering, i took my camera, went far into the water, wanting to take good pics for him. Then the camera got some water inside and cannt work immediately. However, when I told him, he just said Oh no, that's bad. When I asked, is this gonna serious? He just said" I don't know", even didn't show any concern. Although it's my careless, it's because I wanna take good pics for him that the camera got into water, at least he should show some more concern. Furthermore, although I know fix the camera will take certainly quite amount of money, I didn't even think of to ask him to share money!!
He said I even didn't show interest to share bother him, and shocked by I was so upset by the gas. I asked him do he believe couple need to equal everything? He said of course not. I said, but your action shows YES! otherwise, why you care whether I show interest to offer share?? Then he was like: we are not equalize, in the beginning of our dating, he paid everything. And unequal can be happy when he take me out. I was sooo shocked: he even didn't take me out once after we regular dating, then I just didn't pay the parking and the gas, he is so upset.
That's basically the story, kinda of messed up. Is this normal? I still cannt believe we break up because of money. I feel embarrassed, frustrated, and sad.. We had such a good time, and I even think him as my soulmate.. I still kinda wantting him back.. Does this worth try? Thank you.. I need help!