I love him so much it makes me sick.
Ok, well I'm 16.. met a guy on MSN 7 months ago who's 21 I actually feel like such a loser for doing this but I really need to get it off my chest. we've been speaking non stop ever since, you may think I'm deluded but I'm actually in love with him he doesn't even care what I look like and never asks me on cam or asks for piks, we may not know eachother but it feels so real, he's all I think about, my whole life literally revolves around him and I honestly don't know what I'm gonna do when I lose him. About 4 months ago we confessed our feelings for eachother, we can literally speak all night about anything and lately I've been getting paranoid and fcked in the head that he'll find someone better than me and these thoughts are getting the better of me, I told him how I felt about that like a week back and he put my mind at rest and told me he thinks he loves me but he's not the luvy duvy type which is just one of the things I love about him I think he's the most amazing guy on earth and theres noone else like him, he's not like other guys and isn't girl obsessed or a pervert and is really cleanminded. sometimes I think it might of been easier if I never met him because then I would never of known what I'm missing out on and I'll always know, he's the only one who actually knows me and when I think of life without him it makes me wanna die, theres just no life without him.. anyways this week particulary it's like he's lost interest and always says how bored he is whilst speaking to me and it's getting me really down and I really don't want him to go off me which I'm really worried about because it'd kill me.. well theres loads more I could write but I really don't wanna write too much.. (don't patronize me about my age please) xx