It's done, I broke up with my girlfriend. I wish I didn't let our relation rot for so long before taking that decision. She didn't take it well at first, but I think she understands my reasons. Overall, it was far less dramatic than what I expected.
Now I have to make a move toward my friend, who I really love. She was in a long distance relationship as well that ended last fall. Since then, she's been single, but she fancies a guy who lives in the states. She says she don't ever want a long distance relationship again, and that guy has been refusing her advances for nearly 6 months. I don't know why she is wasting her time with him. I'm afraid that he could finally end up meeting her just to get his candy and then leave. Another guy who liked her just spent 2 weeks in her city. He met her only once and called her a few times. I don't think I have to worry about him.
I know that she really likes me, she thinks I'm funny and I'm always giving her the attention she needs. When we talk on MSN, it usually last until the early morning hours. I think one of the advantage I have is that unlike all the other guys in her life, I'm a bit older, and certainly more mature. I also live close enough to not call this a long distance relationship.
My biggest worry is that I'm pretty sure I'm not her type physically. Even if I'm in my mid 20s, I still have the body and face of a 17-18 teenager. I'm only 5'8" (just like her) and I don't look very manly compared to the competition. She never commented on my look except to say that I had amazing eyes(they are brown around the pupil and green on the outer edge of the iris).
Since I just broke up from my previous relationship, I don't know how to tell her how I'm feeling. Since it was a long distance relationship and I met my ex for the last time in January, I guess the rules are different on the time I should wait before getting involved with someone else.
I've been giving her plenty of clues over the last weeks, but I don't know if she got them. I don't know what she will think of me when I tell her about my feelings. Will she think I'm a jerk for leaving one girl and moving on her a few days later? Or will she find that flattering? Or she could just be disappointed because she never expected her friend to cross that line.
I don't know if this is a good sign, but she has been very supportive over the last days while I was getting ready to break up and after.
She is supposed to visit me in july for a week and stay in my apartment. I'm guessing this is the best opportunity for me. I'll show her around, we'll go to restaurants, watch movies and I'll cook for her. It will be more than a month after I broke up and we'll see how well we get along. I'm hoping that if the chemistry is really good, she could fall for me. So should I hold my horses until then?
