halloween week end - advice plz
Alright, so here is the deal. About a yr and a half ago i started liking a friend who i had known for 2 yrs or so in high school (and i started liking her yr after we got out of HS) however wasn't really all that close to her until we were in the same program in pre-uni. She didn't think she felt the same way about me and we also knew 2 couples (all 4 mutual friends) who had gone out after being friends and ended with ugly break ups. Because of this she wanted to play it safe, ie not wiling to take a chance on anyone and lose a good friend, especially if she wasn't quite feeling it.
So after maybe 8-10 months of me liking her, on and off, mostly on and getting rly down on myself, i emerged at the end of last spring, finally, with my head up and over her. We hung out on a pretty regular basis during those times and still do till today since we got the same group of friends. Recently however i find myself thinking about her a little more.. sort of discomferting. Not that i think i have feelings like i did before.. but I just can't help noticing her. She's just a great all person, personality wise, smart, attractive (although she was very quiet/shy in high school and up until recently id say, so she hasn't been involved with any real relationships or anything). She has just been kind of overlooked for a bit i guess and i can't figure out why people don't act on it now, lol its beyond me.
I find myself just thinking about her and those qualities, and although like i said i don't have the same feelings as i did earlier i am worried. Next weekend for halloween we and 4 other friends are going up to join 2 others at another university for halloween parties. Place is a pretty big party school around these parts and there will def be random hook ups available left right and center. As I find myself thinking about her more do I just got to go with the flow and play the field of many girls whom ill probably not see again, or if i do will i find myself regretting what i am doing or just end up with one random girl, thinking of my friend? Its not like anything will happen between us anyways(which at the time when i told her i liked her that yr + ago, she said won't happen because she didnt wanna mess anything up).
I guess i am just wondering if anyone has had a similar experience. Will getting with someone else help ease my mind from this friend, or will i just be thinking of being with her while there is a total stranger in front of me... :surprised:P:detective
