Prevent Thread-Jacking of Nightmarish Deja-vu

Wanted to start a separate thread for this conversation... seemed the polite thing to do...

Anyway, continuing on:

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Originally Posted by Mishanya [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]

I meant not inside of the nightmares but in real life. What was your self value like while you were awake at the time? (e.g the day before the nightmare)

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My nightmares seem to be separate of my current moods at times...

Some of my most horrible nightmares were during times of my life when I was relatively happy (had a new job, finally got something I had wanted for a long time, received good news about relatives...etc)...

Though I have had nightmares during particularly bad times of my life too (nearly starved to death, enduring physical/emotional abuse from bf's/ex-husband, friends dying, days in which flashbacks were really bad... etc.).

My self-value has often been secondary to others --- family members, loved ones, friends, and sometimes even strangers (depending on the circumstances)... though this may have conflicted with how I naturally am, it's put into place nonetheless...

I'm not sure why I am set up this way (I have theories but nothing 100% conclusive). It is difficult to motivate myself to do something purely for me. Often times I have to convince myself it is because another requires it somehow --- that it is my duty; for whatever reason, I am suddenly limitless in my abilities when I follow this mentality. Some part drives me onward then because it feels as though 'I have no other choice'...

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Originally Posted by Aeradalia [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]

Some of my most horrible nightmares were during times of my life when I was relatively happy (had a new job, finally got something I had wanted for a long time, received good news about relatives...etc)...

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Interesting. I asked because I thought maybe there was some kind of a correlation or pattern, but now I'm just as confuzzled as you.


Personally, I know most of the time when I have a nightmare I wake up pumped up with adrenalin ready to confront whatever it is that attacked me so I never fully get to experience the actual pain in a dream. These chemicals must trigger the need to be awake. Maybe it's that kind of a mental switch which doesn't get clicked in your case.

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Originally Posted by Aeradalia [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]

I'm not sure why I am set up this way (I have theories but nothing 100% conclusive). It is difficult to motivate myself to do something purely for me. Often times I have to convince myself it is because another requires it somehow --- that it is my duty; for whatever reason, I am suddenly limitless in my abilities when I follow this mentality. Some part drives me onward then because it feels as though 'I have no other choice'...

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I think all of us experience this to a certain extent. Fulfilling requested tasks gives our actions certainty and purpose in a way that internal tasks may not. I guess it's a question of balance and how we judge our own needs vs needs of others. What importance we allocate to each and how it gets scaled.