can i be heartbroken if i was the one who..

.. broke it off? i broke it off with my gf 2 months ago after 13 months.. for the second time.. then recently its hit me that i am still in love with her.. and i told her how i felt, poured my heart out, literally.. she said she can't take me back because its the second time i've left her, it hurt me heaps.. but i know i was at fault for leaving her twice.. now i feel really.. empty? i don't know, can i feel like i just got my heart broken? i guess we kinda agreed we'd still be close friends.. she said shes not completely over me, i guess she's scared to be hurt again..

i guess all my talk won't do anything either.. so i just decided to see what the future holds.. what will happen.. if she realises or not.. or we just move on..

advice?

Leave her alone, work on yourself.

You broke up twice, there's a reason for that.

A relation is not about a roller coaster ride, it's about hard work and stability.

If she can't rely on you, she'll find someone she can rely on.

How do you imagine a relation will work out if you run away (because that's what you're doing) when the riding gets rough?

No commitment there as far as I can tell.