I need help with a breakup. (wall of text)
This is not for a broken heart. My broken heart has passed and I need advice on what to do next. I will start by summing up the relationship.
I am a 22y old male. I meet a lot of women, have fun, ect, but I was never in a real relationship. I was looking for a committed relationship, but I wanted it to be with the right women. Then I met my ex. Everything about her was perfect and things took off right away. I opened up my heart to her and everything was working out fine.
Long story short 3 months later dumped me. I have a feeling that since this was my first relationship and her 3rd or 4th or something, My lack of experience made me ruin relationship. I took her for granted. I started out by expressing my love to her everyday, and I slowly slipped away from her.
When it came down where we had to have a serious talk, I just sat their with a deer in the headlights look. I didn't know what to say or what to do and because of this she said it was over. I broke down right infront of her. I was a pathetic excuse for a human being. At first I was scared and confused and her saying it was over broke me. I never felt so much grief in my life. I was so scared and alone I did not know what to do!
Once she dropped the bomb all I did was make it worse. I rubbed salt in the wound. She stopped loving me but I still loved her, and I expected her to feel sorry for me but she could not. I was desperate and begged her to reverse her decision and kept saying I loved her and I needed her. Looking back it was a bad thing to do but I was not in the state to make a proper decision at the time.
Even with that damage, it still ended with a cliffhanger. She said that if it was truly meant to be, that we would work out. She needed time and she told me that I needed time to heal. She said "txt me when you have healed yourself and thought about if you really want me" or something along those lines.
Timeline-wise, she broke up with me on Wednesday night, and Thursday was my failed attempts at making her reverse her decision. I could not sleep, I could not eat; I wanted to die. I was in so much pain and I had nobody to support me. The pain is gone now, and I feel that I am already over it. I am a very resilient person, and I can get over this sort of stuff quickly. I feel happy about myself again. I can look at the good parts of our past relationship and smile/laugh! I have no feelings for her anymore, but looking at what we had; I don't want it to slip away forever.
What do I do!!!? Its like 3 days and I already feel I am ready to start over, but I don't want to **** things up again. I am worried because there was a guy there for her and they were pretty close friends and I can see her rebounding on her fairly quickly. I was thinking next week I could ask her to see me in person and just go for a walk, start over, but I don't know if this is too soon. How much time is acceptable? What do I say? How do I approach this? Is she serious or does she never want to see me again?
