Ugkk. I'm so f*ed over again.

gosh, i meant this guy.
didn't date him but talked for 2 years.
eventually stopped talking.
miss him and all, but don't love him.
not interested in other guys because of him.
love HIS personality and everything < def my type.
if i actually was interested in a guy, they'll remind me of him.
besides all the BS . I'M NOT FKEN INTERESTED IN BOYS.
i have rejected prolly 5 guys in the summer.
wtf am i doing? i have no idea. i'm trying to move on.. but the old relationship is pulling me back. it's soo fustrating. and you can't lie.
MOVING ON IS TOUGH. :(

what should i do, FOR NOW.. to ease the pain.
find another guy? that i know i'll end up rejecting..

Do something you like, find a way to be happy before you date again. Definitely don't go out with anyone until you get rid of your depression.

why aren't you dating him?

moving on is tough, but there has to be a reason that you don't want to be with him and I think you need to figure that out. Once you know exactly what is keeping you from moving on it will be easier to actually move on.