Just got back from out of town--went to a major metro area. It was nice to be around a lot of people because there's a greater chance of meeting interesting people. For instance, the pool scene at the resort was very busy, lots of different and interesting women. I ended up talking with this really sweet woman from the Middle East. She and I ended up having drinks and talking for hours about history, politics, family, life in general. I had to leave for a dinner and she had to go to a play. She said, let's meet afterwards, say around 11 pm?
I thought, "Yeah, right! She'll never call!" But, lo and behold, she did call (at around midnight. I showed up to meet her at a club nearby. She was "dressed to nines." I was wearing a summer suit. We ended up drinking and talking until nearly 2:30 am before I really had to go to bed (I had a work meeting at 7:30 am).
We kissed quite awhile before she and I had to part ways. We agreed, it was hard to say goodbye. She is going to be a town about 4 hours from where I live, but because of work, I can't go to meet her. I've asked her to come to see me before she returns to the Middle East. I really hope that she does, but would understand if that didn't happen.
But, a second chance...it was nice to be thrown into something and find someone so sweet, so bright, so nice and this time, unlike in a different situation eight years ago (in a similar town, by a similar resort swimming pool), this time...I was now old enough to see the opportunity and to kiss her and to tell her that I liked her. A different woman but from the same part of the world.... But, a similar feeling. This time, I'm more aware that of the near impossibility of the situation but I did all that I could and have no regrets.
So, to all those who have similar experiences and live with regrets, I write this to say, sometimes age and experience heal wounds. If nothing else, this recent event healed some very deep wounds in my heart.
