I’ve successfully gotten thru my biological clock ticking thing recently and focussed on enjoying my nephew who is absolutely amazing to watch grow. very recently I have reached a point with my best friend where I have come to a very final conclusion. Nothing bad happened but unfortunately I have had to say to myself that I can’t give myself over to her insecurities and feelings of superiority based on her continuous sob stories that invoke a need within me to protect her and yet she hasn’t a need to have these sob stories. She is not emotionally independent and that is now very clear to me. I played that part of saviour for too long. Today my brother (who has major issues with my dad due to his inability to accept responsibility for his own life) asked me to look after my nephew and drop all jobs I had on today in my business. He persuaded me because I missed my nephew and haven’t seen him in weeks. I managed to change appointments and got excited at the prospect of seeing him and then my brother left me waiting to tell me when to pick him up. In the end my brother cancelled but I was still supposed to look after him later in the evening which subsequently got cancelled too. So now I’m wallowing in self pity out of disappointment and the fact I allowed myself to get so disappointed by the whole thing and now am thinking about the issues my dad has with my brother and my other brother leaving soon to go to Canada to live forever and the end of a friendship and I just feel so down tonight about everything, my friend, my nephew, my dad and my brother.
I’m just a tad emotional tonight but I wanted share is all.
thanks for readin'
