Affection, two way street?
Right, I've been going out with this girl for just over two months. She's great, I love her. She says she loves me. I was a virgin when I met her. She was not and has had a year long relationship that went bad, just basically the dude was a idiot and not very thoughtful to her. First night I spent with her I thought went well but looking back on it I started everything. I thought at the time it was just because she was shy. But now I'm not so sure. See every time we have had sex I have initiated it, from foreplay through it and everything. Well ok, on two or three occasions she has done things, asked for things but really its that little amount. Its not like she doesn't enjoy it, she seems very happy afterward. But if I snuggle with her she seems to like it but doesn't snuggle back, just has her arms sitting where ever they were. Out of bed its the same. I initiate 98% of hugs and kisses.
So I thought maybe it was because I initiate everything too much or too soon? I get the feeling I am a pretty affectionate person.
I thought I'd try something this weekend while I was helping her move place. I thought I'd hold back as much as I could. Tried to just give friendly pats on the back, that type of thing. Hoping maybe she would do something even just like a hug or hold my hand or anything. Nothing.. I feel like she doesn't find me attractive, or doesn't love me. But I dunno.
I plan to talk to her about it next time I see her in a few days as I want to talk about it face to face. But I'd like another opinion as to if I should worry about this and even talk to her about it as I'm not sure if its just me being crazy.
I love her, I just want her to come up to me out of the blue give me a hug and kiss me without me initiating.