2 year relationship ended over petty things misery ensues
This might be a long read so you've been warned. So my first gf broke my heart and I have no idea what I want. We basically fell really hard for each other and everything seemed perfect. I never had to fake anything or say things for her to like me I truly believed she was one of a kind. I'm 23 and she's 20. A few months ago she decided to hang out with some guy I never heard of until 1 am when she had work the next day at 5. I know Ive always had a bit of jealousy issues but I never doubted her trust. So naturally we have a fight and I go from being in the dog house to going on a break to being broken up with.
After a week she told me she wanted to take things slow and shortly thereafter we were back together. But it made little to no sense to me why we broke up in the first place and all the fighting and her sketchy behavior turned things sour. This was mid October we decided to go through with the celebrating of the two year for what reason I don't know. I've read a lot of stuff about how to win her back and things of that nature but I don't know if there is a point.
She wants to be friends but I don't see a point unless we get back together. I feel like if she started dating someone else it would be for the best so i'd never have to worry about having her back because I don't know if I could look past it. She says things like she's afraid I'll never move on and when I ask for time and space she'll text me about stupid stuff just likes she's used to.
I have no idea what I want anymore. The mood swings vary too much
