Looking at breaking up possibly, need some insight.
Also so I've been with my girlfriend for about 3 months and I'm crazy about her, but she isn't nearly as into me. We shared 1 class together last term, how we met and hooked up, and now we sit together in 2 classes this term. She plays mind games like nobody's business, always teasing me about our relationship. Last night over IM we were talking about living arrangements, and she knows I'm actively looking for an apartment. Well, she jokingly said "Hey get a 2 bedroom and I dib the other room." I knew she was joking so I said "Oh you would live with me, huh?" and of course she said no, to which I replied "Haha, didn't think so." After she started talking about what might happen we be broke up, and I didn't think much of it, and was like... well sure, thats possible. As if really asking she said "you agree?" And I was like... "Well yeah, I mean I don't think we're going to break up, but anything is possible."
Thats when things got weird and depressing. She told me not to be so confident, to keep in mind she wasn't in love with me, and nothing I do could make her fall in love with her. In her own words "If it happens it will happen on it's own although I'm sure you know this."
I tell her sometimes before bed that I love her, because I do. I say sometimes because it pisses her off when I say it, and she goes into a tizzy about what love is/isn't and how much I don't know about love. I've set her straight about it before. I have been in love. I know what it is, but it... she is pushing my buttons. I love her but if this isn't going to work... I need to burry my head in the sand and just forget about her now. I don't want to be led on only to be told that I've been in love with nothing. Most of my friends tell me to break it off, but... If she is acting, she should be in hollywood. Sometimes I am convinced that she does love me, but it's difficult. Is this too much trouble? How can I deal with her after I break up with her? I see her EVERY god damned day and I sit next to her. I'm so lost.