Everything just went wrong...
NOTICE: THIS THREAD CONTAINS LOTS OF PROFANITY.
I would like to vent real quick if that's okay?
"**** ME, WTF, HOW THE **** CAN YOU RUIN YOUR GIRLFRIEND'S BIRTHDAY YOU ****ING DICKWAD, I'M SO ****ING STUPID... I SHOULD OMG.... I WANNA CRY SO BADLY BUT I CAN'T, CAUSE IM SO ****ING PISSED ARGGGGGG"
I know it's a long post... thank you to anyone who reads and helps me out here.
Okay... girlfriend's birthday, she is sick, and I don't think she was in the greatest mood.
Just a regular wednesday at school... walked her to class and all, didn't kiss her cause she said she doesn't want to make me sick, just kissed her forehead every time.
I brought my guitar to school today cause my friend told me to and I also wanted to sing her happy birthday.. she saw it and was like "omg please don't sing for me infront of everyone" and she made me promise I wouldn't.. and so I didn't get to sing her happy birthday.
Just a regular day, she got a present from her friend and mine was still in mah backpack, it was a pretty smooth day... until afterschool...
We walked out together and her ride was here and so i gave her my present and hugged her and said good bye. I could usually go to her house if her parents said yes, but there was a misunderstanding... turns out i could go over...
but I was already at the park with my coach and friends practicing tennis and there was no way I can ditch them.. it's just not right... I could only go over to her house from 3-5, I texted her at 3:30pm to ask if she wanted me to come over, and she said "i don't care, it's up to you, whatever makes you happy" and so I took it as she's not feeling well and wasn't in a good mood, so i told her "I'm not coming over." then she tweeted saying "ugh i thought today was going to be a good day? i guess not huh?" and she directed the message at me... so I texted back saying "im sorry im a middle of a game and i can't come over." and sounded mad after that...
so i got done at 4:30 and I decided to stop by Albertsons to get her a cupcake with a candle on it and get there before 5 to say "happy birthday" and to tell her to "make a wish and sorry I'm late..." I just wanted to make her smile...
but because I'm 17 and I couldn't buy matches cause im under 18, i had to ditch the cupcake idea and settle for her favorite... sugar cookies... i bought a sack... I went to pay but when i was done.. it was 4:59... shit... there's no way i can see her now...
So i asked if she got her mail already and she said "no", and so I told her to go get it... I got there, I left the cookies on top of the mailbox. I would've stayed but it was getting dark and I didn't think she would get mail alone and so i left, I didn't see her coming because other cars were blocking my view... and then i texted her "don't forget the cookies"... then i get a reply..
"what kind of shit is that. just ****ing drive away. bye."
so turns out.. she saw me drive around the corner... and she thought I didn't want to see her...
and so she got mad... and I got sad... I drove back and rang her doorbell.. she opened the door and said "what are you doing here? you're not suppose to be here after 5, i can get in big trouble" and I told her "I'm sorry... I didn't see you coming so i drove away... I'm very sorry baby." and she just said "you're not suppose to be here, leave"... so I walked away saying "sorry..."
And so I texted her, explaining myself, and she said "You didn't come over, and you drove away, and didn't want to see me, so i used common sense" and she tweeted "crying on my birthday, what a gift" and I felt like my heart just got stabbed... cause I did everything I could to make her day a good day, and I ****ED IT UP...
she apologized saying that she was sorry and ruined her own birthday and im not obligated to make up anything... but i don't give a damn.. I just made her birthday the worse birthday she's ever had...
so right now she's all down in the dumps and I can't do anything to cheer her up.. what can i ****ing do? PLEASE HELP ME. sorry for the foul languages.
i just want us to be alright again...
