this hurts so bad........
i decided to come here and express my feelings and to get advice from being hurt.
after 10 years of breaking up and getting back together, me and my ex are finally done. we are so different, but we always got along. she is battling bi-polar, which really puts a strain on the relationship. i moved to VA to be with her, for a job that she had. she got another and developed a friendship with a tenant here. they started being friends and she would go over there a few times.
we broke up and have gotten back together, on monday she was back over there and we broke up again, bc she said that she was not happy. she would hang out with him during the evening and spend the night over at out apartment. this just killed me to see her on the phone with him and laughing, while i am hurting so bad. i told her that she had to move out, she is getting all of things now, but this just hurts so bad.
the bad thing about it, he lives within 500ft or so from me. so i feel like it is right under my nose while i am hurting here. i wish i could just turn off these feelings. i have no friends here and i sit in this apartment thinking about her all the time. granted, we both tried our best at the relationship, but i just wish that it didnt turn out this way.
the guy she is dating is a convicted child molester and 20 years older than her(27)/(47). i didnt want to make her leave, b/c she doesn't know too much about this guy and what he is capable of doing, but i had to protect myself. i just wish i could turn this hurt feelings off.