Did I cheat? What to do..
Hi folks,
So, Iv been with my girlfriend for about 8 months now. I am so in love with her its unreal, I see her as the girl I want to settle down with and marry. (Im 23, shes 28 - just so you know were not children).
Over the past few months (since around xmas) things have been quite bad - we argue evertday over the stupidest of things and it seems to be driving us apart. I feel she resents me slightly now and is trying to save herself from getting hurt.
Anyway, there's this girl Ive been friends with for year who has asked me a couple of times to meet up for a drink, but Iv always made an excuse because Im madly in love with my current g/f and wouldnt do that.
However, my girlfriend and I were at the cinema last wednesday, and she fell out with me because we'd missed the 3d version of a film and I said we should just watch the 2d instead. She stormed off. To me this was the final straw, I drove her home and she text saying it was over and to forget her. I agreed that things had gone to far and I dont think we can fix it anymore even though I desperately wanted to.
So... that night, I text this girl - she'd text me the night before asking how I was but I ignored it - just for a chat (and told her Id split with my g/f and was a little upset). After a few texts back and forth, I asked if she still fancied that drink. She said yes. The next day though I immediately regretted it and text saying I didnt think it'd be fair as it was so soon and I didnt want to hurt my g/f (or ex at the time) feelings. She said that was fine and she was there as a friend if I ever needed.
Since then my g/f and I had a chat, I told her I wasnt happy and what needed to be done to make it right, and we've been giving it a shot.
Now here's where I got busted... Last night I was on facebook, and my girlfriend decided to have a wee nosey, and checked my fb emails. Thinking nothing of it, I let her carry on - oblivious that there was mail waiting from this other girl. It said something along the lines of "Hey, sorry Iv not been in touch - broke my phone. Not sure if you still want to meet up but just to let you know that its fine if you dont. I dont want to come between you and your g/f. I hope your ok, speak soon x".
My girlfriends little heart sank :( and I confessed to everything (above). I feel so terrible and really dont know what to do or say. I guess I just liked the attention and to see if I would be ok without my g/f. I would never have met this girl while I was with someone, or even just after we'd split cos Id be too heart broken. I just hoped it would go away.
Not sure what to do, thanks for reading. Any advice (or abuse) is welcome!
