I was saved once before I letted him in again
I posted a few threads last year around this time, at that time I just found out my boyfriend of over 3 years cheated on me with multiple girls. I did recover after that horrible heartbreak. But then he came back to my life last March, he used some fake account and commented on my blog and asked about what I was going through. I didnt suspect a thing at first so we started talking for days. But somehow I knew it was him (OR I so wish it was really him). He started persuading me to talk to my ex (himself) again and said he felt like my ex (himself) was not a bad person he was just confused. I got weak and I gave him my new cell number (I changed my number to get away from him after we broke up), he called and cried, and begged me to take him back and said he couldn't live without me. I said no at the first few times but then I started to fall for him again.
Last December, I just found out he was seeing someone at his college around the period we just got back together (in May). He said he ended it months ago (in August).
Until now (today), he promised to be come home on time but he didn't for 2 nights. I got upset and he went he needed time to be on his own and to grow up. I didn't know what to say. He was just fine yesterday! We were even watching movie together. WHAT THE HELL? To gain my trust back, he shutted down his facebook and AIM and everything else that ever had linked to those people he cheated with, I thought if he could do this much for me, he must have changed or at least he wanted to change. I gave him ANOTHER CHANCE (I lost count of how many times I've forgiven him).
And today he told me he had to be on his own and SWEAR he isn't cheating on me this time, just becoz I got upset at him that he was home late, he didnt even call me when he got my angry emails, he got on facebook to comfort his friend though, he claimed one of his friend was going to kill himself. (Is it a lie...)
I seem ok on the outside but I feel like I'm already dead on the inside. I know I deserve this. I shouldn't have taken him back. Please tell me what I can do. He said he would talk more with me when he wakes up. I'm so lost and confused and hurt right now. Can anyone help?