I can't stop thinking about my first love.... :/
Hey (:
I'm in quite a bit of a mess. I can't stop thinking about my first love/childhood sweetheart.
I can't get my head around it really.
We were together for pretty much all of our childhood. Then as we grew older, we grew apart. We never spoke in school and it even got to the point where we would just argue. But there always seemed to be something there whenever we argued or said something to each other - I can't quite describe it. It was like whenever we said something horrible we didn't mean it. And even though we didn't really speak, we wish we did. If that makes any sense?
I've also had loads of dreams about him lately.
Most of them were about us two being together, and happy.
but last nights dream was so touching... the the point where I still feel the emotions I felt in my dream. It started where I saw him the other end of the street in his uniform (he's a soldier), and we walked up to each other, and just hugged each other for what seemed like forever. It wasn't like a normal hug, it was "i've missed you so much!" hug. When I think about how I felt in my dream, it makes my stomach go all funny.
In addition to this - I just have no idea why I just can't stop thinking about him - it's been so long since we last spoke, and we're probably totally different people.
We're both 18 now. Left school. He's in the Army. He doesn't have a facebook and I don't have his number.
I just can't get him off my mind :S I thought I hated him.
Can anyone help? Anyone ever felt like this?
I'm a little confused to be honest.
Thanks in advance.