My Brief Introduction

Hi I'm now a single (I think) I'm 34, woman from California. I found this site because my heart has been broken for the first time. That heartbreak where it's real painful constantly. The kind of heartbreak that you almost aren't believing. I'm typically real shy by nature, i'm not ugly says others, I can count the number of men on both hands that I've had in my life, and 80% of them I was with them only during the period of time we were. I've been reflecting back to those past relationships and I hadn't felt this heartbreak, like I do now going through this one.I have thoughts knowing I need to let go so I can... 1- stop hurting, 2- be happier 3,- take care of me, 4 - find myself 5- love me again- 6- start living my life . I'm just not really wanting to get over him. Im in love , not obessivly but truely. I desire to have the relationship we could have, We both have had a difficult past and both have worked hard to not live that way any more. I guess, I wish I got as much time to build the new relationship with him, has as much time our past relationship suffered through. Oops. I got off course a bit. Thats where I'm at, not by choice.

I think you found the right place, inoccence.

i think we need details.