I'm trapped in this paradigm.
So here's my life:
I work at Target, but I'm not making enough money there, and I want to find a better 2nd job, and hopefully leave where I live at now, because I'm kinda sick of Saint Paul, MN. I'm going to school for my Computer Networking AAS degree, however it is hard to find a job in that field. Time to change major to Electronics Technology, and do more schooling. This is going to take forever.
I only do what I like, so I'm not going to be a Lawyer or Doctor.
I live on my own. I don't cook much. I eat cheap because It's hard to support myself.
I quit drinking alcohol. That made me do more stupid things.
I only smoke pot every now and then, but now that I haven't been doing it so much I feel so antisocial again like I need the drug.
I'm debating on going back on it since its not a real bad drug except for the people that rather look down on me, than understand my psychological problems and how it can help.
I have immature friends that kinda make fun of me for the way I look, not having a GF, and the way I live (which isn't bad). But to move on, I need to find new friends.
What can I do, I don't really want to live this way. I need to move on with my life. I know it seems I'm rushing it, but I'm 22. I can welcome some uncertainty in my life to experience new things. But it's hard, because I never felt comfortable telling my family how I feel, because I don't think they would understand. Money is holding me back from doing anything I enjoy. Debt free, but working at kinda ok wages right now. I feel like I'm a slave to the system, but the only way to avoid it is to stay home play video games, watch movies. too much stuff I'm exposed to is part of the diagnosis of this problem. I'm trapped.