i cant forget how hurt it was. he left me in the deepest hole :'((

i cant forget how hurt it was.. it's like traumatic.. he left BIg hole.. I'm fine with my life now, but, in other side , I think I am scared to fall in love. coz i always closed my self to them. i always try to be alone. and i still remember him, not because i still love Him, but because it's hurt.. so hurt.. I love my self more now, which is good.

I feel so lonely.. but when someone ask to go, i always refuse him.
and i if I know that A guy like me , in reflect i will keep distance with him..

and before my brother try to introduce his friend to me, I met him, i like him, but I dont know why when he talked to me , spontaneously I answered him with no willingness.

so strange.. :'(